Bummin Out

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As usual, I bummed out in writing a follow up to my previous post. I’ve been pretty out of it the last couple of months. With getting married, the signing of the lease to CF Flower Mound, and life in general I haven’t really been able to stay on top of what I normally can. I won’t pretend blogging was something I kept up with even when I was able, but it certainly got lowered in my priorities when other things came up.

An update on me: after finding out I have a partial tear in my labrum, I went to some physical therapy just to find out I could easily do it all on my own, as the therapist gave me little attention. I have been consistently (somewhat) doing it on my own for about a month and have seen little improvement. My follow up appointment with my ortho is next Friday, so I’m starting to get scared. He told me there were two options when I left his office last. I could try physical therapy, hoping that the bursa sacs that are inflamed would relax and the surrounding muscles would get stronger and the pain would go away, or I could have surgery. Luckily, he wasn’t wanting to do surgery right away. But, he said if it didn’t improve, that would be the only option to make the pain go away.

I’m in a hard place. The pain is very bad when I do certain movements (pull-ups, toe to bars, anything pressing my head through my arms overhead) but other than that it’s very manageable. It does randomly hurt when I’m not working out, and sometimes it’s pretty bad, but for the most part I could probably live with it. But, CrossFit is what I do. Pull-ups are a HUGE part of what I do. Therefore, do I just give up all together on doing them, or do I suck it up for 12 weeks knowing that the pain will be gone when those weeks are over? Is it even guaranteed that the pain will be gone after the surgery? These are all things I’m debating with myself. But, if I’m going to do it, now is the time (since I met my deductable through physical therapy).

As of right now, I’m not using my left arm really at all. No deadlifts, no pressing, no rowing, do pull-ups or toe to bars. My training has been interesting to say the least. It has made me pretty unmotivated to work out at all, which brings me to my next update..

Getting married is NOT easy on the nutrition. I tried so hard to stick with clean eating, and with showers, and bridal luncheons, family in town and going out with friends it seemed nearly impossible. In fact, a week out from the wedding I pretty much gave up all together in trying to eat well when I was with friends/family. I felt like this was going to happen only once, why not enjoy the social aspect of going out with friends and having a good time and letting loose. LUCKILY my dress fit perfectly, despite my week of going crazy. The resort we went to in Mexico offered NO good options. Literally. I was craving just ONE good meal. We could taste even sugar in the scrabbled eggs. Really?! Since we’ve been back I’ve really been trying to get back on track. I mean, it’s been a month! Dave has been trying harder than I have, and I haven’t made it that easy on him. It’s been on our prayer list that I get motivated and letting my mind win daily. It’s a work in progress to say the least.

Anyway, married life is awesome! I love working and going home with my best friend. The only annoying thing at home has been our new 10 week old puppy, who enjoys waking us up as many as 3 times during the night, and even peeing in our bed twice. :) Obviously, this makes for a grumpy wife. But, it’s getting better daily, and the training is going really well somedays and terrible others. It’s great practice for the future though, right!?

Until next time (many months away) do better than I have this past month. Stay on track physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Don’t let little things trip you up.

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